Tuesday, 12 September 2017


On the 11th September 2001, I flew to France to start my year abroad at a French uni.
The events of 9/11 somehow bypassed me given my limited language skills at the time. And quite possibly my preoccupation with setting up a new life.
Nonetheless, I will always remember where I was on the day.

9/11 now has another meaning, too.
On the 11th September 2017 my mum's funeral took place.
The last months have been eventful and challenging. And despite I knew that death was imminent, it remains surreal that she now really is dead.

Friday, 8 September 2017

too easy, really

recently, I've been encountering a number of people who talk at me. i'm not interested but haven't yet found a way to get myself out of these situations. partly being too polite and not wanting to hurt their feelings. and partly ... well, i'm not yet sure what the other part/s is/are.

now, anyone who knows me in real life, also knows that i like to talk. and i was wondering just how many people feel exactly how i feel with those people when they spent time with me.
of course, i'm pretty confident of my awesome conversational skills and my great storytelling skills.
nonetheless, i feel it's a sign to be more mindful.
more mindful of what i say (you know that rule: is it kind? is it true? is it necessary? dare i admit it: i guess a lot of what i say does not tick those boxes. even if it is rather funny!).
more mindful of how the people i speak to feel and what their needs may be.
more mindful also of why i say what i say.

so much to be mindful about!
how very useful then, that I am reading this book at the moment as part of Megan Winkler's fb bookclub:

Thursday, 7 September 2017

just sayin'

motivation to blog is still lacking.
posting on instagram is much quicker.
so, if you miss me - check out my insta account 😎

Saturday, 2 September 2017

Menschen 2017 - August 2017

Reminder: Menschen 2017

Giovanni and Michaela - running a beautiful B&B
Michael L, Jens S, Sasha B, Claus B, Ursula R, Thorsten W, Ralf B, Daniela S - new work colleagues
Michael Koch 

January 2017 - 17
February 2017 - 8
March 2017 - 17
April 2017 - 33
May 2017 - 21
June 2017 - 33
July 2017 - 18
August 2017 - 11
New total: 158

This is me

I'm still here! Just currently little motivated to fill this blog.

I got the photos from the recent photo shoot. While mostly looking the same in all of them (and really horrible in others...), there were at least a few I quite liked. I then started to play around with filters - gosh, the amount of time I could waste on applying different effects!
Here are my favourites:

Wednesday, 23 August 2017

new beginnings

With a delay of a week and a half, I started my new job today. A gentle handover period.
Lots of information to take in, but I am also excited to start something new, something I believe in, too.
And no, I haven't given up on my coaching business at all, that will continue to run in parallel. In the interest of my need for variety this really is a great way forward!

Sunday, 20 August 2017

what to say, what to do?

I thought a while about whether or not to post this on here.
But this blog is basically my diary, so it has got to go on here, I feel.

On Thursday 17th August 2017, my mum passed away.
She had been in a hospice for the last four weeks. The night before her 71st birthday (12th August), she fell asleep, never to wake up again. 

These last four weeks have been intense, challenging, sad and nonetheless I am deeply grateful for having been able to experience them the way I did. With friends and a support network there to help my mum as well as by my side. Taking one step at a time.

About 5 years and 3 months ago, she had gotten her first diagnosis

I am sure it will take many more weeks for me to process this.
The thought that I will never see her and talk to her again is surreal for now.